You don't need someone else to study the Bible. The Bible is readily available, even free in most places. I was born in and my gut could not accept that a loving God would destroy his good creation. The world never seemed as bad as the Witness made out. Even the Holocaust did not merit Armageddon. The process of being a teenager made me want a fuller and wider world, which led me to college. During college, I studied the New Testament as a historical/social document. We discussed some theological themes. The biggest mistake was to confuse faith and history. Indeed, I chose neutral nonWitness topics to write about. My Catholic friends chose Catholic topics and did not do well.
So I had some academic background. I could not read Paul b/c of the Witnesses. Indeed, I wanted to spit on him for his miscogynistic comments. After law school graduation, I was soaring on Wall St. when I became very, very ill. Since I could not work, I decided to study the Bible. I lived in NY so I went up to Union Theological and asked for the leading text on a specific book. But I refused to open it. I wanted to know what I thought, stripped of outside commentary. How did I know whether the author was just another jerk like the Witnesses?
I sat with the Bible and read consecutive verses. It is easy. Most books are short. There is no need to integrate it. It does not integrate, in fact. When it came time to canonize the Bible, serious discussion included one full gospel b/c of the differences in the four orthodox gospels. I surprised myself. Shortly after beginning, I came upon clear scriptures that directly contradicted my Witness training. When you study with the Witnesses, you accept the truth of what they are saying. Indeed, one would need a very sophisticated flow chart to keep up with their dancing around the Bible. It is a huge, massive book, larger than Shakespeare. You can quote anything for your own purpose. Reading consecutive verses keeps you out of extraneous teaching and onto what you feel it says. You are human. My views are as valid as any Pope or Protestant theologian. They are opinions.
I suspect your gut is protecting you. B/c I live in NY, I discuss the Bible with many different religions, particularly Jewish people. I recommend getting your own bearings. It is not difficult to do at all. There are Protestant nondemonational seminaries like Union in NY. The scholarship is extraordinary. Ask for book recommendations. I've found studying the historical and anthropoligcal context to be fascinating hobbies. My view is that we are no different from the evangelists. God gave us brains to think and far more.